I’ve suffered from low self-esteem all my life. Yet it’s only in the past few years that I’ve really come to realise it’s importance for everything else that I want. Low self-esteem is like Impostor Syndrome. But where you normally doubt your skill and competence in a particular field, here it encompasses your whole life. … Read more
There’s an emptiness I often feel that makes it hard to find meaning in my life. A feeling of desolation. It’s not lack of energy, it can’t be. I have enough to eat. I want to do some work, I just don’t feel motivated to do anything. Also, I always seem to question and doubt … Read more
I don’t believe that reading self-help books is a bad idea. Yet the reputation of the self-help industry and its ideas is tarnished and deservedly so. Some of what we believe about ourselves and how we function comes across as pseudoscience nonsense in a new age of woo. We fail to do the necessary due … Read more
I have made my fair share of mistakes just like anyone. They embarrass me and show me up as the ordinary man that I am. I’m often ashamed to admit these mistakes of my past. It makes it difficult to open up, be vulnerable and really connect with someone. We have a tendency to try … Read more
One of the biggest causes of my social anxiety and depressed feelings is the thought that I’m somehow flawed in a fundamental way. This lack of self-worth, I found, was the basis of my fear and anxiety and why I hold myself back. Like many, I was afraid that others might find out about me … Read more
The paintings and sketches are just some from a recent St Ives painting short course I attended at the St Ives school of painting. I was down there for five days and the course only lasted for three, but I wanted to experience what painting on-site was like. Plein Air painting has a long tradition … Read more